Drama: Home Troopers 居家兵團.

Rating: ★★★★☆

Just finished watching the last two episodes and omg I literally cried my eyes out! ==" I didn't like how Leo and Karen had to split up just because of Leo's stupid wife! Grrrr! It just shows how cruel this world can be. Just because two people love one another doesn't mean that they'll always be together. These things depend on your...luck. Well in my opinion it does.

Overall I really liked the drama. :) A lovely drama to watch with the family...and oh my, Kevin Cheng is sooooooo hot! Haha. He definitely looks good for his age! Haha.
So yeah, watch this drama if you haven't! :D

xxx

A sad story.

I've been listening to this song over and over and over again for the past few days. Definitely one of the most touching songs I've ever heard! Couldn't stop crying! And the fact that a 17 year old girl wrote it to her boyfriend before she died made me cry even more! :'( :'( :'(
Always appreciate those around you, before it's too late...

xxx

Thoughts.

*Sighs*
I cried today...for various reasons.
I cried whilst watching a drama. ><" I cried whilst listening to this song that I found on Facebook...apparently, a girl wrote it before she died and it was dedicated to her boyfriend. :( I cried when I thought about you. It's been an emotional day.
I tell myself that I must stay strong but sometimes I just can't do it.
I'm a human being too. I have feelings. I get hurt, just like everyone else out there...and it certainly doesn't help when you're a really emotional person. I never knew that I was this emotional until the past few years...when my life gradually changed...Nothing was right. Everything was wrong. It's crazy how your life can be ruined within seconds. Love...family life...health...wealth...education...everything went completely out of control. I sometimes look back to last year and I think to myself..."How the heck did you get through that?!" I was literally at breaking point. Sometimes I felt as if I was pushed way too far and that I just wanted to leave everything and go to a completely different world. It was too much. It really was. But that's life...avoiding your problems aren't going to make them go away...sometimes you've got to think to yourself, do you know what...someone up there obviously wants to challenge me and do you know what, just bring it on!
I have people around me who are always happy...and I wonder, how the heck do you do it? But then...you never know what happens behind closed doors...maybe it's just a mask? They're probably thinking the same...Everyone's usually like goddd Ga Mei you laugh at anything and everything, like a Sor Por! ==" You're always smiling blah blah blah...I guess it shows that I'm good at covering all the sadness up. :') However, I have them days when I'm feeling down and depressed but do you know what...I've kind of got used to the pain...that might sound sad but it's true. It's...simply...life. There are some things which you just have to get used to.

xxx

感动.

Loving this song!
It reminds me of someone...:')

一开始 我以为 爱本来会很容易 所以没有 经过允许 就把你放心里 直到后来有一天 你和他走在一起 我才发现 原来爱情 不是真心就可以 我感动天 感动地 怎么感动不了你 明明知道 没有结局 却还死心塌地 我感动天 感动地 怎么感动不了你 总相信爱情会有奇迹 都是我骗自己 以为自己不再去想你 保持不被刺痛的距离 就算早已忘了我自己 却还想要知道你的消息.

xxx

Product: The Body Shop Nail Brush.

Rating: ★★★★★

I'm really liking this nail brush. =] I personally think that it's very important to keep your nails as clean as possible. I can't stand it when things get stuck in your nails. It makes me want to puke. Especially on guys. Urgh. You'll definitely need to get one of these if you have long nails...and it doesn't necessarily have to be from The Body Shop. :)

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2011.

New Year Resolutions:

1. To lose weight.
This is a must. I do not want to be called fat for the rest of my life, trust me, it ain't a good feeling. And I absolutely hate it when people look down on others just because of their weight...so yeah, I'm definitely going to try and shed a few pounds here and there. I just hope that I actually do this time for a change.

2. To sleep at "regular" times.
I actually need to stop going to bed so late. I've been going to bed at like 2-4am in the morning every single night and it's definitely taking its toll on my skin. :( And I now have the biggest bags ever! I look like a fat panda and it is definitely not a good look. ><"

3. To stop lazing around.
I am probably one of the most laziest people that I know. Seriously, you would not believe how lazy I can be. I need to actually get off my bum and do something productive for a change. ><

4. To stop leaving everything to the very last minute.
As a lot of you probably know, I leave EVERYTHING to the last minute. Literally everythingggg. I'm always leave my work to the night before and end up getting like 3 hours sleep because I'll be too busy finishing it off. All this procrastinating needs to come to an end!

5. To look after my skin...PROPERLY.
I've not really been looking after myself lately. :/ You're supposed to do a facial mask like once a week but these days, I do one like once a month. :P I've totally given up. ==" And my skin's breaking out like there's no tomorrow! :/ I neeeeeeed to do something about it...maybe drinking more water, having a balanced diet and doing some exercise would help. :/ And obviously getting some decent sleep would have a hugeeee effect.

6. To work harder.
I need to focus more on my studies. I've been lacking for toooooo long. It needs to stop. I need to get my bum into the second year otherwise it is going to be rather embarrassing and I'd be wasting quite a LOT of money and I do not want to be doing that. ><" I need to start reading those Economist magazines which I've been paying for, well dad has. :P I need to revise for these class tests/exams. I need to do these assignments days before the deadline...you get the point. :P

7. To stay strong.
As some of my close ones know, I've been through a pretty tough year. The toughest year yet. :/ I just hope that I'll be able to stay strong through 2011. I've spent the past 365 days crying, literally. It's time that I learn to control my emotions.

8. To spend less money.
I can be quite bad when it comes to shopping. I tend to buy the most random, pointless things that I will probably never ever use again. I guess I'm not as bad as I used to be but according to some, I'm actually pretty scary when it comes to shopping, however I disagree. :P It's just that there are lot of things out there that I tend to like and my shopping list just goes on forever and forever so yeah, I'm going to try and watch my finances from now on. :/

The list goes on...but I can't think of anything else so that's it for now...:P

Happy New Year everyone! Have a great one! :D

xxx

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Bye Bye 2010! Hello 2011! :)

Well...we're only a day away from the NEW YEAR! :) A new year, a new start, a new chapter of my life! :D I'm just so glad that 2010 is coming to an end. I can't believe how fast it's gone but yeah, I cannot wait for it to be over. I can officially state that 2010 has been the worst year of my life...yet. :/ I just hope things start to turn around in 2011. Where are my guardian angels when I need them? :( It's time that I have some sort of happiness in my life, isn't it?

2010...was a really tough year. I've literally spent the past 365 days...crying. :( I found life...really challenging. I felt as if everything just fell apart. Nothing was ever right. And when it was, there was always something/someone that had to spoil it. I'm actually surprised, yet relieved, that I've actually lasted this long. Haha. I really am. I've learned a lot this year...both good and bad. :')

Quite a lot has happened this year...there's been some EXTREME LOWS...:'( But then there has been some EXTREME HIGHS too...:') Just that there were more lows, than highs. Oh well, that's life right? Life ain't perfect. And neither are we.

Well I left Hulme (my school's sixth form college) this year...I was there for 7 years...and omg how fast has it gone?! I feel soooo old now. ><" Haha. I kind of miss everyone. :( I didn't think I would but I do. And I couldn't go to that presentation evening because I had to do that stupid IT assignment as the deadline was on the same day...and I wouldn't have been able to get there. *Sighs* Only if I could drive...and only if I wasn't the kind of person to leave everything to the last minute. My A level results weren't great but I got into uni which was the main thing, thank god. :) Uni is sooooooooooooooo different to college...:( In college, the teachers would spoon feed us whereas in uni, they don't really care. It's up to you whether you want to the work or not. *Sighs* There's so much responsibility...and you have to rely on yourself for almost EVERYTHING. I miss being spoon fed everything. :P Where are Danson/Wailes/Langdon when you need them? Haha. Although I've left Hulme for quite a few months now, I still find it weird having Jamil and other people teaching me economics. Haha. ==" But yeah I miss Hulme. :( I'd love to be able to go back sometime to visit everyone even though there are some teachers that I didn't really like. *Coughs* :P

Sadly, a few days after our last Business Studies exam, a college friend passed away. :'( It was such a shock. :( :( :( He was in the same class as me for both Business Studies and ICT so yeah, I found it quite hard to accept the fact that he had just gone like that...I just think it's soooo unfair how someone up there has just taken him away from his family and friends just like that. He didn't deserve it whatsoever...Accidents happen and I guess they just can't be avoided. I hope he's at peace. :) He was a decent lad, who was genuinely nice. :) And he was so smart! Whenever we had problems with our computers/technology he'd be the first person we would all turn to. Haha. It'd be like "Helme this, Helme that." Haha. :') He would always use these really technical terms and I'd be like :S :S :S. Haha.
R.I.P Helme. You will always be remembered. :') Always.
I've learned a lot from Helme...and his departure...
It just shows that we should never take anything for granted...And make the most of the time that you have left...as you never know whether there'll ever be tomorrow. So if you want to do something, do it...if you want to tell someone something, say it...before it's too late...
However, I'm sure that Helme had a wonderful life. :') It's just a shame that it was cut so short. I just hope that someone up there is looking after him and will let him come back to this world as a stronger person, living a longer life. :)
The fact that Helme passed away after 18 years kind of scares me at time...as he was born on the exact same day as me...28th August 1992. It makes me think...that could have been me...
*Sighs*
Life is so unpredictable...it really is. I guess that's just part of the game.
Just remember, when life tries to pull you down, fight your way back up! Don't give up!

2010 has also taught me that all of us must be extra careful with our finances! People often say that money isn't everything but seriously, in this world, you can't get anywhere without money. Unfortunately that's just how the real world works...whether you like it or not. I've always been rubbish at handling money as I'm one them people who just end up flinging money around on the most pointless things ever. However, I am a lot better than I used to be. :P I just hate how people always think that I spend half of my time shopping/spending money when I actually do work...and no I don't get everything that I want. And no I don't have everything. However I am grateful that my parents have always tried to give me the best in life. As I'm an only daughter, my parents are really overprotective, as most of my friends have probably noticed. Sometimes I feel as if I'm a big let down. There's nothing that I'm good at. I can't do anything right. I'm probably the dumbest person ever. ><" I actually feel sorry for my parents. I can't imagine what it's like having a daughter like myself...It must be stressful. I just hope that one day, I'm able to make something of myself...and give the best of everything to my parents. Let's just hope that I'll succeed in whatever I do.

Let's look at some of the highlights of 2010...well I got to go to Malaysia for 10 weeks! Woop woop! Haha! It was great being able to see all my relatives again! And I made some new Malaysian friends too which was cool. :) I'm so grateful for all of them giving up their time to take me around and stuff. Words can't explain how grateful I am. Hehe. I also got to go to Hong Kong which was mint! It was my first time going to Hong Kong and there was like 27 of us going which made it even more exciting! Hehe! We were only there for like 6 days but I still had a really good time! I can't actually believe how busy it was! And omg the people were sooooooo rude! Apparently they're nicer these days but I still find them rude. :P Haha.
But yeah, it was a good summer holiday...however, I found it emotionally challenging...I had many sleepless nights...but in the end I thought it was worth the pain. :')

This year I've felt that I don't actually know my friends as well as I thought I did. I sometimes feel that there's this barrier between us...but hopefully things will begin to change.
However I would also like to thank those who have been there for me during the tough times. You all know who you are. :') I really appreciate it. I would like to thank you for being such a good listener...thank you for the support/advice...thank you for not judging me...Basically thanks for being there. You'll never understand how much it means to me to know that I can rely on you(s). :)

My personal life...has been all over the place this year. Up and down...up and down...up and down... *Sighs*
Mainly downs...:(
It's been more than a year and I'm still stuck in the same old place...There's nothing that I can do about it though. :( What am I supposed to do? Wait?
I try to show that I care but I sometimes feel like an idiot as I just get ignored time after time. I really don't know what have I done wrong this time...I was hoping that you might tell me yourself but at this moment in time, I can't see it happening. :(
For the meantime, I'll just have to wait.

Also, I've been ill like all year round. I swear there's always something wrong with me...It's either really bad stomachaches...headaches...migraines...nose bleeds...hayfever...colds...flus...gastric pains...sore throats...skin problems...*Sighs* I really don't know what my body's playing at. Looks like I'm going to have to take extra care of my body and start paying more attention to my health. :/

Well to summarise everything up, 2010...has been the worst year going. I just hope that 2011 will be a better one! I am going to try and stay as positive as I can for the new year! I think we all need a new start!
So yeah, I'm going to wish everyone a very HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance! All the best!!! :)

xxx

Let it out.

I've just cried my eyes out and I feel much better now. :') *Sighs* When will all this crying stop? It's tiring...I don't want to spend every single day of my life crying...It just isn't right. It doesn't matter how strong someone may seem on the outside, that someone will always have a weakness, just like me and you.

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A day out with my boing boings!

^I spent like half an hour trying to sort my fringe out after getting it cut! =="



^Do you like my style? ;P



^Sorry, I just had to cover my ugly face. =="



^Someone's happy with their new haircut! Whereas I was about to cry when I saw how short my fringe was! :/ Can't wait for it to grow!



^It's time for some green tea ice cream I think! :D



^The scarf which saved me yesterday after waiting in the cold for like an hour! ><



^Sarah, this is such an attractive pose! :P




^ Boing Boing stuffing her face!

Well well well...I got to go out yesterday with my boing boings! :D God it's been ages since the last time we went out! as a group of three! ^^ The good old times!

For the first time everrrr, we all had our hair cut TOGETHER. ^^ We went to this place in China Town, only because my mum said that it was good as the guy that used to do my hair at his house now works there but omg I was not happy with the outcome. My hair looks really short and my fringe is just toooooooooooooooooooo short. :/ :/ :/ I need it to growwwwwwwww...like NOWWWWW. :/
When it grows out, it should be a perfect side fringe. Well it better be! I do not wanna go around looking like this! ==" It's...UGLY.
Haha boing boing wasn't too happy with her hair either however, Sarah Yong was happier than ever as you can tell from my photos and decided to rub it in that her hair looks better than ours! ==" Lol. Never mind, our hair WILL grow Yongo! :P

We did some hardcore shopping but omg I could not find the perfect winter coat. I went around the whole of Manchester in the cold I couldn't find anything...and when I did, it was too expensive. I saw this really nice Karen Millen parka coat and omg it was like £235! £235 for a coat? ==" What the...? I could buy like 2-3 coats with that kind of money. :( *Sighs* It's times like these when I wish I was rich. :(
I saw this nice parka in erm Urban outfitters as well but it was £125 so I didn't know whether to buy it or not and decided to leave it in the end...It was pretty nice though. :)
Oh well, I've decided that I'm not going to buy anything until after Christmas as that's when the sales will start kicking in! ^^ As my dad says, to buy stuff now is like the most stupid thing anyone could ever do as the sales are only a few days away! Woop woop! I cannot wait! I'm going to shop until I drop on boxing day and after that! :P Hopefully there'll be some nice stuff in the sales. :( The Christmas sales last year were so crap so hopefully there'll be nicer stuff this year. =|

What else did we do yesterday...Hmmmm...EAT. Omg I ate sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much yesterday. I've probably put on like 3kg in a day! I had loads of sushi/Japanese food at Wasabi! And some green tea ice cream! :P Is it me or does green tea ice cream not taste of anything? Lol. And then I had loads of Chinese food for dinner. Miam miam! :) It feels soooo good to be able to just stuff my face! Haha! Even though there are consequences!

But yeah, it was a really good day overall, regardless of having to wait for the bus in the cold for like more than half an hour! My dad had to come and pick me up instead so that meant waiting for another half an hour and omg it was like -5 degrees! Therefore people, NEVER rely on public transport! NEVER EVER!
=="

x

害怕.

我突然覺得有點怕 愛跟生活的一切.

x

Sighs.

I don't know what to think anymore...It hurts so much that I don't want to anymore.
I'm tired of holding on but there's no way of letting go is there...It's too late...I've fallen into a very deep hole and there's just no way of getting out.
Sometimes I ask myself why are you still waiting for something that you know will never happen...Why? Someone please tell me why.

I just find it so hard to act as if it's not bothering me when it obviously does.
I think about it every single day.
You're always the first/last thing on my mind...I can't do anything about which means you're probably meant to be there?
That doesn't bother me but it's just knowing that my dreams and reality are two completely different stories...
It's kinda scary how you're always in my dreams...I don't think there's anyone out there who appeared in my dreams as many times as you have! Why though? Why? What does this all mean?
Thankfully, they're good dreams...but you'll never understand how disappointed I am when I wake up...
Only if dreams came true...:(

It's been a year and I still can't get over it. Actually, it's been more than a year. I bet you don't even have a clue what's going on in my mind seeing as your barely talk to me anymore. I'm lucky to get a hi these days...which I don't even get...
However, I was soooooooooooooooo surprised when I did get a reply of you last Sunday. It absolutely made my day! I remember waking up and I looked at my phone and I saw a message saying "thanks." I looked at the sender's name and I was like WHAT THE...?! My eyes nearly popped out of my head! Haha! I was soooooooooooo happy. It was only one word but it meant the world to me! :) I sent that text at like 4 o'clock in the morning, just before I went to sleep and I was telling myself..."He's not going to text you back." However, I thought to myself, at least he'll feel as if there's someone out there for him...:') And someone who cares...but it's not as if he would even care if he knew that I cared seeing as he already belongs to someone else and she plays a MASSIVE role in his life. :') Never mind...I guess I was late...and maybe our relationship has told us things were just never meant to be between the two of us...Even though I know there'll never be a you and me, I just want to keep on trying...I just want you to know that I do care...and I always have. :') So please remember, no matter whatever happens, I'll be here for you. :) I promise.
*Sighs*

I remember how different things were back then...Things were just soooo...different. :/ Only if I had a time machine which could take me back to those times when we'd laugh at like anything and enjoy each other's company...Only if...
I never thought that anyone would ever mean this much to me. I usually get over these things relatively quick...but this time...things have got too deep. What have I let myself in for? *sighs*
Sometimes I ask myself is it my fault or is it his? I try not to blame him for anything as I could have put a stop to everything and avoid the whole situation by letting the feelings fade away...but I didn't...and everything has finally come back to haunt me.
No one ever knew this but I used to have a crush on you when I was much younger...:P But I kept that a biggggg secret...like a very big secret. Haha. However things weren't as bad back then as I was still young/naive and never really paid much attention to that kind of stuff...Not in a million years would I have thought that the feelings would come back...maybe it wasn't the right thing to go back...
I realised that you really cared about her but then you also made me feel as if I actually meant something to someone...that feeling was just...priceless. :') I would like to thank you for leaving me with all them beautiful memories. These are what keep me going...so thank you...you made me feel...special...and every girl would like to feel that every single day...
It's just a shame that you'll never make me feel that way ever again...or maybe you will...Who knows? We can't predict the future after all.
Even though your coldness kills me, I still want to try and bring the old you back...the person who used to laugh with me...the person who I could tell anything to...the person who I trusted everything with...the person who could make me smile...the person who would constantly tell me that you missed me (maybe you were just trying to be nice/flirting-LOL)...the person who would always ask me if I was okay...the person who would comfort me whenever I cried...the person who held me in their arms...the person who gave me a sense of security...the person who made me feel like the luckiest girl in the world...the person who actually cared about me...the list could go on forever so I think I'll stop there for now...as I know that this will not be my last blog post, about you, so yeah...
I'm just waiting for that person to come back. I've tried and tried but I feel as if I'm getting nowhere. :( Hopefully, there'll be a day when you'll realise that there was a girl out there who was waiting for you all that time...a girl who would have done "anything" for you...a girl who would fight for you...But for now...I just can't see it happening...

x

Product: Simple Rapid Action Spot Zapper.

Rating: ★☆☆☆☆

I was really looking forward to using this product but unfortunately it didn't really do much for me. I also think that the consistency was a bit too thick for my liking. It didn't do the job for me as my face is still covered in spots/pimples.

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Product: Atrixo enriched moisturising cream.

Rating: ★★★★☆

Love this hand cream. It smells nice and it definitely does the job! And you can get a lot out of one tub!

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Remember...

that there's always someone out there for you. :) x