BORED.
FEEL LIKE BLOGGING.
BUT I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY.
I NEED IDEAS.
xxx
Showing posts with label Feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Feelings. Show all posts
06 June 2012
12 March 2012
Oi oi.
Tooooooooooo much to do this month. :(
Don't know where to start.
Feel like crap.
Still ill after a week.
I'm tired all the time.
*Sighs*
But I'll carry on fighting.
:')
I can't wait for summer to come...*Dreams*
I can't wait to sleep for hours on end.
I can't wait to do absolutely nothing apart from eat, watch tv, and sleep. Well that's what I do everyday to be honest. :P
But yeah, you get the point. ;)
Don't know where to start.
Feel like crap.
Still ill after a week.
I'm tired all the time.
*Sighs*
But I'll carry on fighting.
:')
I can't wait for summer to come...*Dreams*
I can't wait to sleep for hours on end.
I can't wait to do absolutely nothing apart from eat, watch tv, and sleep. Well that's what I do everyday to be honest. :P
But yeah, you get the point. ;)
xxx
29 February 2012
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31 August 2011
Motivate me.
I hate how my emotions are constantly changing. It's rather tiring. And it's stopping me from sleeping. Why is it so hard to be happy? Whyyy?
I'm often known as the "owl" amongst my friends as the people around me tend to think that I never sleep...I do sleep...it's just that I sleep at the wrong times. And there is a reason why I stay up so late. I prefer to wait until I'm absolutely knackered and then go to sleep. I don't like laying in bed at night with a million things on my mind. I'd rather collapse on my bed. Does anyone else feel the same way?
I feel sooooooo useless at the moment...I've had the longest summer holiday ever and what have I done? NOTHING. Nothing productive. There's so much that needs doing but nothing's happening. I just wish I had the motivation to get up off my big fat bum and do something useful for once. I feel like a right loser.
xxx
I'm often known as the "owl" amongst my friends as the people around me tend to think that I never sleep...I do sleep...it's just that I sleep at the wrong times. And there is a reason why I stay up so late. I prefer to wait until I'm absolutely knackered and then go to sleep. I don't like laying in bed at night with a million things on my mind. I'd rather collapse on my bed. Does anyone else feel the same way?
I feel sooooooo useless at the moment...I've had the longest summer holiday ever and what have I done? NOTHING. Nothing productive. There's so much that needs doing but nothing's happening. I just wish I had the motivation to get up off my big fat bum and do something useful for once. I feel like a right loser.
xxx
16 July 2011
13 July 2011
08 June 2011
I want to be SKINNNNNNYYYYY.
I HATE being FAT. I just hate it hate it hate it. People are constantly making comments about my weight and it reallyyyyyy annoys me. Yeah, I know I'm fat...there's no need to mention it...just because you're stick thin doesn't the rest of the world has to be too.
Obviously we call our mates names such as "Fatty" but we never mean it. There's a difference between taking the mick...and actually criticising someone for their weight.
I remember my auntie's husband calling me "dai jeck" which basically means that you're really big/fat in Chinese, in a restaurant! The whole family was there! How am I supposed to react to such comments? Laugh it off? :/ Haha I acted like a right baby and started getting teary. I don't actually know why I started crying. I had this "smile" stuck on my face and tried incredibly hard to laugh it off but then my eyes started watering and before I knew a tear fell down my face. I scared myself yet everyone else. I must have just been really tired from the jet lag/feeling really emotional. The fact that my aunties were calling my fat days before probably didn't help the situation either. It was funny how my uncle kept on trying to apologise but the damage was already done. I'll never ever forget those comments! NEVER. It's not that I'm not forgiving or anything but people should know that calling a girl fat is almost like calling her UGLY...Tell me, who wants to be called ugly? NO ONE.
I'm constantly told that I need to lose weight and all that. Errrrr easier said than done MATEEEEE. Last year, I went on holiday again, to visit the family and I decided to visit three of my aunties, on the same day, one after another. Guess what was the first thing that they all said to me...Well, it didn't take a genius to work that out did it...
"You've put on weight since last year."
"You've got...bigger."
Yeah thanks, really appreciate those comments.
Girls care A LOT about their appearance and after hearing such comments, I felt as if someone just stabbed me in the heart! I decided that I was going to go jogging as soon as I heard their comments. Those in Malaysia are so lucky! They don't even need to work as hard as we do to lose weight. You just sit there and you'll end up sweating like a pig. We have to proper workkkkk to sweat in the UK. That's probably why the Brits are bigger in size compared to the Malaysians. Haha.
Anyway, I definitely need to start watching what I eat and maybe I should do some kind of exercise...:/
I do not want to be called fat for the rest of my life.
FAT = UGLY.
Well in my dictionary it does.
I want to be SKINNNNNNYYY so that I can wear nice clothessssssss! :( *Sighs*
(All from ASOS!)
I better stop complaining and do something about my weight!! :( :( :(
xxx
Obviously we call our mates names such as "Fatty" but we never mean it. There's a difference between taking the mick...and actually criticising someone for their weight.
I remember my auntie's husband calling me "dai jeck" which basically means that you're really big/fat in Chinese, in a restaurant! The whole family was there! How am I supposed to react to such comments? Laugh it off? :/ Haha I acted like a right baby and started getting teary. I don't actually know why I started crying. I had this "smile" stuck on my face and tried incredibly hard to laugh it off but then my eyes started watering and before I knew a tear fell down my face. I scared myself yet everyone else. I must have just been really tired from the jet lag/feeling really emotional. The fact that my aunties were calling my fat days before probably didn't help the situation either. It was funny how my uncle kept on trying to apologise but the damage was already done. I'll never ever forget those comments! NEVER. It's not that I'm not forgiving or anything but people should know that calling a girl fat is almost like calling her UGLY...Tell me, who wants to be called ugly? NO ONE.
I'm constantly told that I need to lose weight and all that. Errrrr easier said than done MATEEEEE. Last year, I went on holiday again, to visit the family and I decided to visit three of my aunties, on the same day, one after another. Guess what was the first thing that they all said to me...Well, it didn't take a genius to work that out did it...
"You've put on weight since last year."
"You've got...bigger."
Yeah thanks, really appreciate those comments.
Girls care A LOT about their appearance and after hearing such comments, I felt as if someone just stabbed me in the heart! I decided that I was going to go jogging as soon as I heard their comments. Those in Malaysia are so lucky! They don't even need to work as hard as we do to lose weight. You just sit there and you'll end up sweating like a pig. We have to proper workkkkk to sweat in the UK. That's probably why the Brits are bigger in size compared to the Malaysians. Haha.
Anyway, I definitely need to start watching what I eat and maybe I should do some kind of exercise...:/
I do not want to be called fat for the rest of my life.
FAT = UGLY.
Well in my dictionary it does.
I want to be SKINNNNNNYYY so that I can wear nice clothessssssss! :( *Sighs*
(All from ASOS!)
I better stop complaining and do something about my weight!! :( :( :(
xxx
06 June 2011
It's this time of the year when I think about you the most.
I just hope that one day, I'll be able to fully let go of you.
xxx
02 June 2011
Yes I am a BBC (British Born Chinese)...SO WHAT?!
Right, I'm going to do some blogging whilst listening to this...;)
LeeHom all the way! Woop woop! <3333333
Since joining Weibo I've noticed how some of the people on there are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo rude/aggressive! Seriously they need to just chill! Don't get me wrong, I'm not sayiing that everyone on there is mean, there are nice people on there too. :)
I just updated my weibo like 10 minutes ago and I thought I'd do so in CHINESE...yes in Chinese...and I don't know, maybe the way I worded my sentence made it sound stupid/blunt but I knew what I meant and that's all that matters. :P This guy was like "Duhhhh you're talking crap" and I was like "Woahhhh just chill mate! No need to get so feisty!" What do you expect? I was born and brought up in an European country. You can't expect a BBC to be to write poems in Chinese!! That's like impossible! Oh well, I blocked him anyway soooo nerrrrrr.
A few weeks back some girl on Weibo started saying stuff to me too...I commented on LeeHom's picture and he mentioned some place in China that I had NEVER heard of and she was like are you Chinese and all that...and if you are, how can you not have heard of the place blah blah blah...HELLOOOOO, not every single Chinese person was born/lives in Mainland China! Stupid or what?! Does she know how many Chinese people there are on this planet?! Does she know how many Chinese people live outside of China?! GODDDDD, narrow minded or what. She probably thought I was dumb and all that but I'm pretty sure she's the dumb in this case!
There was this other guy as well and he was asking me where I was from and I was thinking to myself...why are you asking me when it TELLS YOU on my profile...><" But being the nice person that I am...HAHA...I answered his question out of politeness and told him I was from the UK...He had such a big reaction and thought I was lying! He was like "mo ack san ack guai!" Ngoh sin mo lei gom dack han ack lei! IDIOT. Want me to get my passport out fooooooool?! MO LIU. Seriously though, why are people so narrow minded for?
I've also noticed how people abroad only talk to you because you're a BBC...it's like helllooo there's more to someone than their nationality!
I'm not sure what it is but maybe they find it fascinating or whatever...
I guess we'd be fascinated too if we made friends with a French person in England but still...there's just no need to act like we're some kind of alien...
You're Chinese...I'm Chinese...there's not really much of a difference is there really?
Well apart from the fact that we were born/brought up in different countries...and own different accents...At the end of the day, we're of the same race and we're human beings just like everyone else!!
It isn't often that we bump into BBCs that can speak PERFECTTT Chinese...it really isn't. I'm sure there'll be times when BBCs have problems with trying to find the Chinese word for something and so we might say the odd thing in English...and NOOOO it isn't showing off! People get it sooooo wrong! It's just that our Chinese isn't fluent enough to say EVERYTHING in Chinese! Trust me...if we could, we would.
Also, sometimes it's just a matter of habits...For example, I might say OHHH MYYYY GODDDD whereas a Chinese kid who was brought up in a different country might say 我的天啊...Seriously, that isn't showing off...It's just that we've got used to saying such phrases!
Just because we're speaking in English doesn't mean that we are showing off.
It's just...HABITS.
According to a friend of mine, Chinese people from places such as Hong Kong look down on BBCs...WHY THOUGH? WHYYYYY? I seriously don't get it. Do you?
We're all equal.
Apparently, they look down on us because our Chinese ain't good and all that...><" What the...?! WHO CARES? I don't.
My mate was telling me how her cousins have friends who go to international schools in Hong Kong and are educated in English and they think that it's necessary to show off their English. LOL what the...?! That's just MO LIU. So whenever my friend goes back to Hong Kong, her cousins are always telling her to speak in English when her cousin's mates are there. HAHA. That kind of happened to me a few times too. My cousin was telling me how her mate said his English was amazing so she told me to speak to him deadddd fast in English. HAHA. ><" It's not like my English is much better than his. People tend to think that because you were brought up in the UK you'd know every single word in the Oxford dictionary but I'm sorry to disappoint but we really don't. It's just like you can't expect every single Chinese person in this world to speak perfect Chinese, right? :)
In countries such as Taiwan, they teach their kids to pronouce words in Chinese using that "ing ang on an" thing. We don't over here, hence why sometimes our pronounciations aren't always correct. Oh well, as long as the person you're speaking to understands what you're saying that's all that matters. Hehe!
I've also noticed how everyone loves taking the mick out of my Chinese! Personally it doesn't bother me. :) But it's one of the main reasons why I don't tend to speak in full Chinese...unless I really have to. So when I'm trying to get a point across to someone, you'll never hear me speaking in Chinese because we would actually be here for a year!! Time is precious! We need to save it! ;P
I'm not sure whether any other BBCs have this problem but when you're in England, people think that you're too Chinkified...when you're in Asia, people think that you're too Westernised...You can't please everyone. ><" Sometimes I think to myself...does it really matter that much? *Sighs* *Shakes head* Anyway, enough on this topic. :P I just wanted to get my point across initttt. Everyone has different accents. It doesn't matter if it's Chinese, French, English, Italian, Asian or what not...At the end of the day, we're all human beings and there's no need to be offensive or anything towards someone's nationality. :) Being a BBC doesn't make you better than anyone else. Being an ABC doesn't make you better than anyone else. Being a HKBC doesn't make you better than anyone else. REMEMBER THAT.
There's something that I want to say...
I'M PROUD TO BE BRITISH. I'M PROUD TO BE CHINESE.
PROUD AND LOUD.
xxx
LeeHom all the way! Woop woop! <3333333
Since joining Weibo I've noticed how some of the people on there are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo rude/aggressive! Seriously they need to just chill! Don't get me wrong, I'm not sayiing that everyone on there is mean, there are nice people on there too. :)
I just updated my weibo like 10 minutes ago and I thought I'd do so in CHINESE...yes in Chinese...and I don't know, maybe the way I worded my sentence made it sound stupid/blunt but I knew what I meant and that's all that matters. :P This guy was like "Duhhhh you're talking crap" and I was like "Woahhhh just chill mate! No need to get so feisty!" What do you expect? I was born and brought up in an European country. You can't expect a BBC to be to write poems in Chinese!! That's like impossible! Oh well, I blocked him anyway soooo nerrrrrr.
A few weeks back some girl on Weibo started saying stuff to me too...I commented on LeeHom's picture and he mentioned some place in China that I had NEVER heard of and she was like are you Chinese and all that...and if you are, how can you not have heard of the place blah blah blah...HELLOOOOO, not every single Chinese person was born/lives in Mainland China! Stupid or what?! Does she know how many Chinese people there are on this planet?! Does she know how many Chinese people live outside of China?! GODDDDD, narrow minded or what. She probably thought I was dumb and all that but I'm pretty sure she's the dumb in this case!
There was this other guy as well and he was asking me where I was from and I was thinking to myself...why are you asking me when it TELLS YOU on my profile...><" But being the nice person that I am...HAHA...I answered his question out of politeness and told him I was from the UK...He had such a big reaction and thought I was lying! He was like "mo ack san ack guai!" Ngoh sin mo lei gom dack han ack lei! IDIOT. Want me to get my passport out fooooooool?! MO LIU. Seriously though, why are people so narrow minded for?
I've also noticed how people abroad only talk to you because you're a BBC...it's like helllooo there's more to someone than their nationality!
I'm not sure what it is but maybe they find it fascinating or whatever...
I guess we'd be fascinated too if we made friends with a French person in England but still...there's just no need to act like we're some kind of alien...
You're Chinese...I'm Chinese...there's not really much of a difference is there really?
Well apart from the fact that we were born/brought up in different countries...and own different accents...At the end of the day, we're of the same race and we're human beings just like everyone else!!
It isn't often that we bump into BBCs that can speak PERFECTTT Chinese...it really isn't. I'm sure there'll be times when BBCs have problems with trying to find the Chinese word for something and so we might say the odd thing in English...and NOOOO it isn't showing off! People get it sooooo wrong! It's just that our Chinese isn't fluent enough to say EVERYTHING in Chinese! Trust me...if we could, we would.
Also, sometimes it's just a matter of habits...For example, I might say OHHH MYYYY GODDDD whereas a Chinese kid who was brought up in a different country might say 我的天啊...Seriously, that isn't showing off...It's just that we've got used to saying such phrases!
Just because we're speaking in English doesn't mean that we are showing off.
It's just...HABITS.
According to a friend of mine, Chinese people from places such as Hong Kong look down on BBCs...WHY THOUGH? WHYYYYY? I seriously don't get it. Do you?
We're all equal.
Apparently, they look down on us because our Chinese ain't good and all that...><" What the...?! WHO CARES? I don't.
My mate was telling me how her cousins have friends who go to international schools in Hong Kong and are educated in English and they think that it's necessary to show off their English. LOL what the...?! That's just MO LIU. So whenever my friend goes back to Hong Kong, her cousins are always telling her to speak in English when her cousin's mates are there. HAHA. That kind of happened to me a few times too. My cousin was telling me how her mate said his English was amazing so she told me to speak to him deadddd fast in English. HAHA. ><" It's not like my English is much better than his. People tend to think that because you were brought up in the UK you'd know every single word in the Oxford dictionary but I'm sorry to disappoint but we really don't. It's just like you can't expect every single Chinese person in this world to speak perfect Chinese, right? :)
In countries such as Taiwan, they teach their kids to pronouce words in Chinese using that "ing ang on an" thing. We don't over here, hence why sometimes our pronounciations aren't always correct. Oh well, as long as the person you're speaking to understands what you're saying that's all that matters. Hehe!
I've also noticed how everyone loves taking the mick out of my Chinese! Personally it doesn't bother me. :) But it's one of the main reasons why I don't tend to speak in full Chinese...unless I really have to. So when I'm trying to get a point across to someone, you'll never hear me speaking in Chinese because we would actually be here for a year!! Time is precious! We need to save it! ;P
I'm not sure whether any other BBCs have this problem but when you're in England, people think that you're too Chinkified...when you're in Asia, people think that you're too Westernised...You can't please everyone. ><" Sometimes I think to myself...does it really matter that much? *Sighs* *Shakes head* Anyway, enough on this topic. :P I just wanted to get my point across initttt. Everyone has different accents. It doesn't matter if it's Chinese, French, English, Italian, Asian or what not...At the end of the day, we're all human beings and there's no need to be offensive or anything towards someone's nationality. :) Being a BBC doesn't make you better than anyone else. Being an ABC doesn't make you better than anyone else. Being a HKBC doesn't make you better than anyone else. REMEMBER THAT.
There's something that I want to say...
I'M PROUD TO BE BRITISH. I'M PROUD TO BE CHINESE.
PROUD AND LOUD.
xxx
14 April 2011
You're just another story I can't tell anymore.
We all get tired at some point in life. At this moment in time, I'm tired of missing you. I need to bring an end to all of this. I don't think I can live like this for much longer.
xxx
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02 April 2011
Limits.
There's only so much that I can take from life. Push me again and I might just leave.
xoxo
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30 March 2011
The unluckiest girl in the world.
[Yeah I know it's ugly but I was revising at the time, so who cares? ;)]
Seriously, where is all this bad luck coming from?! I've had one of the worst weeks ever. Nothing seems to be going right nowadays. It's simply...bad luck.
I bought a drink from Wong Wong's the other day thinking that I'd be able to drink it on the way home. I tried to pierce a hole in the stupid cup and it just wouldn't go through. Tried again, nope, it wasn't going through. So I tried a little harder for the third time and guess what happened...the whole thing decided to explode!! :/ Seriously what the...?! I didn't even use that much pressure! WONG WONG'S, INVEST IN SOME DECENT CUPS. I bet they buy them cheap crappy ones from the cash and carry! I was sooooooo annoyed...and I felt really bad because it was all over my friend's jeans. :/ And it went all the way down my hoody sleeve. *Sighs* I had to fork out another £3 for a drink from Starbucks instead. ><" *Sighs again*
I went to work on Friday, to help my parents out...I was walking from the kitchen to the counter and what happens...I land straight on my knee cap! It did hurt but I didn't feel anything until days after when I saw a MASSIVE purple bruise on my leg! It was like the biggest bruise everrrrrr!! I was wondering why it hurts everytime I kneel down...><" I'm just...slow. However, I should be grateful that I wasn't holding anything at the time, and that I have pretty good self-control and didn't land on my face instead. I kind of banged my knee against the steamer thingy on the same day in the same place and omg it hurted even more! Oh well...that was just me...being clumsy again. I need to be more careful.
I've had two class tests this week and omg neither of them went well. :/ I'm kind of worried. I really don't want to spend the whole of my summer revising for resits. *touch wood* :/ I REALLY DON'T. Omg that quants test...Grrrrr...you didn't know how ANNOYED I was! It was a computer test...Yes, my uni has to be special and give us tests on computers just to make life harder for everyone. Seriously, what is wrong with doing a test on PAPER? It does just as much harm as it does when you're on a computer!! And at least invest in some decent computers if you're gonna make us do a computer test! My computer took the LONGEST to load and that idiotic maths teacher told everyone to start wayyyy before my computer loaded. There were a few people around my area who were having difficulties trying to load their computers too but did that stupid teacher care? NO. He was like yeah, you can all start. Ours were switched off so it took longer for them to work. The least they could do was switch the damn things on before we went in to do our test! I swear these teachers are either DUMB or don't care at all! All they care about is getting their salaries! Well that was the case for this teacher. The word annoyed doesn't even describe how annoyed I was at the time. I was huffing and puffing all the way through that test! :@ Everyone started the test at different times due to technical difficulties and we all finish at the same time?! What the...?! Is there any justice in this world? I heard some dude shouting "our computers haven't loaded yet so does that mean we will get extra time..." and he shouted back "DON'T TALK." He wasn't talking! He was asking you a question you stupid idiot! Not only were the computers not working, the test itself was SOLLLLLLIIIDDDDDDDDDDDD. I couldn't even do half of the paper so yeah, I can't really see myself passing it. :/ And I certainly didn't have any time to even attempt it as it took more than 10 minutes for my computer to load AND the test was only 50 minutes long...AND we had to sketch the stupid graphs out which took forever...Yeah, as if I'm gonna be able to finish the paper in like 30 minutes...><" I don't think so fooooooooooooooools! I was half way through the test and omg my computer wasn't letting me save any work so I started panicking! I felt like swearing even though I don't...So I had to open like a million other documents in order to carry on..."STOP" the idiot shouts...He told us to save/e-mail our test answers and all that...so I saved everything but then I couldn't save my first minitab worksheet thingy so I told another tutor and he said he would tell that idiot but he never did...That stupid teacher came up to me and was like pointing at my screen and telling me to switch everything off...I thought he was actually going to turn the computer off for me for a minute...even though there were a load of other people who had their computers on and were still trying to save/e-mail everything...So I told him that I couldn't save the minitab project, he tried to "help" but yeah, he didn't even know what he was doing! He was like "Erm I'm sorry, there's nothing I can do about it..." I swear he repeated that sentence over and over again...I was thinking to myself, saying sorry ain't gonna save my work for me, so what do I do now, just delete all the test answers? IDIOT. He kept on telling me that there was nothing that he could do about it...You're a maths teacher for god's sake! And it's part of your job to help students out when they need it!! He didn't even attempt to do anything! Thank god there was another teacher there who helped me save my work otherwise god knows what I would have done...I would have probably sat there and cried my eyes out. ><" So yeah, everything was saved but I couldn't e-mail that stupid idiotic teacher for some reason so hopefully *fingers crossed* my maths tutor has got my test answers or else I AM SCREWED. :/
Woah, that took a while to let out. I was just soooo irritated and I actually felt like crying after that test! Oh well, what's done is done...I can only hope for the "best."
I think I need to do some praying...NOTHING's going right for me these days...Some people might think that it's just me being superstitious...but I don't. I need some luck for a change. GOOD luck...:/
Anyways, I'm going to shoot now and do lots of BFE/LEAP work for tomorrow. URGH. I wonder whether it'll even happen...*fingers crossed*
xoxo
21 March 2011
14 March 2011
10 March 2011
I cried for you today.
For some strange reason, I've been feeling quite emotional today. Maybe it's because of him? It's weird how you can be miles away from someone yet still think about him every single day. I was starting to tell myself that maybe my feelings for him were gradually fading away, but I was lying to myself all this time. I know that things will never be the same between us...but there's always that little bit of hope within me. What do I do? Someone tell me, please. I've thought of letting go, I've tried, and...I failed. I know that he'll never care for me the way he used to. I miss seeing his name on my phone. Things have changed so much between us. People really do change. He's living proof. I really would like to know the reason behind all of his...What has caused him to "hate" me that much that he couldn't even look me in the eye when I was with him? He couldn't even bear standing/sitting near me! Am I really that irritating? I haven't done anything though...and I've tried continuously to sort things out between the two of us but nothing seems to work...I guess he really does hate me. I remember asking his sister once, "If a guy doesn't text you back when you constantly text him, does it mean that he really hates you?" She answered..."Yeah." *Sighs* I guess us two were just never meant to be...It's too late. There's no going back. Things will never be the same between us. I just hope that one day either he will prove me wrong, or I'll accept the fact that he no longer wants anything to do with me...I really do need to bring myself back to reality.
xxx
02 March 2011
Life...is unfair.
I was in China Town the other day having dinner with my family and there was this guy who was sat on his own, opposite our table...He kept on looking at us and it made me feel so uncomfortable...I decided to look away but I could still feel someone staring at me/us...I'm not sure about you but I get really paranoid when someone stares at me...I just don't like it. I thought the guy was just being weird/nosey/perverted...
Minutes later my mum noticed that he was talking...but he was sat on his own...and we were all confused. My mum was convinced that he was talking to himself but I was thinking "maybe he has one of them bluetooth headsets attached to his ear"...so I had quick glances every now and then...and things didn't look too right...There were many gestures and I was just so confused...One of the waitresses came over to collect our plates and my mum asked her whether he was on the phone or something...and then she told us that he really did have some kind of mental problem and that all the waiters/waitresses at the restaurant have spent a rather long time trying to figure this out. I felt really bad after hearing this. There was me thinking that he was some pervert but really, he couldn't help it. It just comes to show that we should never judge. Never. I thought he was a "normal" person like the rest of us...he ordered like the most expensive veg you could order in that restaurant and then a plate of scallops...and them things cost like £3 each! I felt soooooooooo guilty after finding out that he wasn't all there. It made me really emotional...Maybe we should all stop taking the simple things from life for granted...because you never know...it could be one of us one day.
All I have to say is...that...life really is unfair...and no one deserves to live like that...and remember, be careful with your judgements.
xxx
26 February 2011
Worried.
Things have really got to me recently...I've just been crying and crying and crying...Sometimes I don't even know what I'm crying over. Nothing seems to be going right at the moment. NOTHING. I'm just worried that I'll never be able to smile the way I used to...xxx
24 February 2011
Weary.
I'm tired. Life has taken everything that I had away from me. I don't know how long this battle will carry on for...but I'm telling you...I'm pretty close to breaking point.
xxx
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23 February 2011
14 February 2011
Imperfection.
I used to think that life was perfect...until I started growing up, I realised that nothing was.
xxx
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