Me or you? Him or her?

Why must we always compare ourselves to others? Why?

From a young age, we were always comparing our toys...lunchboxes...school bags...why? Does it really matter if she has the latest hello kitty school bag? Or if he has cheesestrings in his lunchbox?
If you're Chinese, I'm sure you'll know what it feels like to be compared against your parents' friends' kids. It happens all the time. It happens to every single one of us. Everyone usually thinks as long as you're you, that's all that matters and you shouldn't need to compare yourself against him/her...Well I'm telling you that's a load of crapppp. Haha.

I remember how my mum used to compare me against other kids and it used to REALLY bug me but I've kind of got used to it now. It was like "Why did she do so well and you didn't?" ALL THE TIME. Errr simply because I'm not as clever as her...or simply because I didn't really...errr...revise? :P HAHA. I was also told 24/7 as a kid that such a body was always better than me and that I was a lot naughtier than that such a body. Errrr mummmm, everyone shows their rebellious side at some point in life...Agree peeps? ;) Haha.

As I got older and older...:/...I began to realise that the people around me are incredibly COMPETITIVE...whether it's friends...relatives...they're all the same. ==" Sometimes it's THAT bad that it leads to jealousy which I think is pretty sad. I understand how it can be a good thing to compare yourself against others in order to make yourself a better person but I swear some people just take it to another level and that's when things get a bit nasty...and everyone starts talking about each other...i.e. A LOT OF GOSSIP and RUMOURS.
Yeah, she has a Louis Vuitton bag but that doesn't mean that you have to have one too...
Yeah, your daughter has done exceptionally well in her exams but that does not give you the right to look down on others and show off...
Seriously people, when are you all going to stop making life difficult for each other?

At the end of the day, we're all human beings so I totally get how things can get a bit feisty between us all after a bit but there really is no need to take it to the next level. It's good to compare at times as it can sometimes give us a sense of direction (in life) and makes us stop for a while to think about what we should do in order to make ourselves a better person, and vice versa. Therefore, I think it's good when people have found themselves a role model or two. :) Also, competing against each other is a source of motivation for all of us to do much better in life and to fight for what it is that we want from this world. However this kind of competition shouldn't cause mini "wars" between family and friends. It's simply unnecessary. Do you not think? I'm not saying that I don't compare myself to others. If I was to say that, I would be completely lying. I used to always think that I HAVE to be better than such a body otherwise I'm a failure in life but that isn't totally true. Just because I might not be for example a faster swimmer than him/her doesn't mean that he/she is better at such a thing. Just remember, no one's perfect. Everyone has their strong points...and their weak points...That's what makes every single one of us special in our own way!

It's good to be competitive...it keeps you "fighting"...but remember, you won't always win. We sometimes have to...lose in life.
C'est la vieeeee!!

xxx

I want to be SKINNNNNNYYYYY.

I HATE being FAT. I just hate it hate it hate it. People are constantly making comments about my weight and it reallyyyyyy annoys me. Yeah, I know I'm fat...there's no need to mention it...just because you're stick thin doesn't the rest of the world has to be too.

Obviously we call our mates names such as "Fatty" but we never mean it. There's a difference between taking the mick...and actually criticising someone for their weight.

I remember my auntie's husband calling me "dai jeck" which basically means that you're really big/fat in Chinese, in a restaurant! The whole family was there! How am I supposed to react to such comments? Laugh it off? :/ Haha I acted like a right baby and started getting teary. I don't actually know why I started crying. I had this "smile" stuck on my face and tried incredibly hard to laugh it off but then my eyes started watering and before I knew a tear fell down my face. I scared myself yet everyone else. I must have just been really tired from the jet lag/feeling really emotional. The fact that my aunties were calling my fat days before probably didn't help the situation either. It was funny how my uncle kept on trying to apologise but the damage was already done. I'll never ever forget those comments! NEVER. It's not that I'm not forgiving or anything but people should know that calling a girl fat is almost like calling her UGLY...Tell me, who wants to be called ugly? NO ONE.

I'm constantly told that I need to lose weight and all that. Errrrr easier said than done MATEEEEE. Last year, I went on holiday again, to visit the family and I decided to visit three of my aunties, on the same day, one after another. Guess what was the first thing that they all said to me...Well, it didn't take a genius to work that out did it...
"You've put on weight since last year."
"You've got...bigger."
Yeah thanks, really appreciate those comments.
Girls care A LOT about their appearance and after hearing such comments, I felt as if someone just stabbed me in the heart! I decided that I was going to go jogging as soon as I heard their comments. Those in Malaysia are so lucky! They don't even need to work as hard as we do to lose weight. You just sit there and you'll end up sweating like a pig. We have to proper workkkkk to sweat in the UK. That's probably why the Brits are bigger in size compared to the Malaysians. Haha.

Anyway, I definitely need to start watching what I eat and maybe I should do some kind of exercise...:/
I do not want to be called fat for the rest of my life.
FAT = UGLY.
Well in my dictionary it does.

I want to be SKINNNNNNYYY so that I can wear nice clothessssssss! :( *Sighs*

(All from ASOS!)

I better stop complaining and do something about my weight!! :( :( :(

xxx

Yes I am a BBC (British Born Chinese)...SO WHAT?!

Right, I'm going to do some blogging whilst listening to this...;)





LeeHom all the way! Woop woop! <3333333


Since joining Weibo I've noticed how some of the people on there are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo rude/aggressive! Seriously they need to just chill! Don't get me wrong, I'm not sayiing that everyone on there is mean, there are nice people on there too. :)
I just updated my weibo like 10 minutes ago and I thought I'd do so in CHINESE...yes in Chinese...and I don't know, maybe the way I worded my sentence made it sound stupid/blunt but I knew what I meant and that's all that matters. :P This guy was like "Duhhhh you're talking crap" and I was like "Woahhhh just chill mate! No need to get so feisty!" What do you expect? I was born and brought up in an European country. You can't expect a BBC to be to write poems in Chinese!! That's like impossible! Oh well, I blocked him anyway soooo nerrrrrr.
A few weeks back some girl on Weibo started saying stuff to me too...I commented on LeeHom's picture and he mentioned some place in China that I had NEVER heard of and she was like are you Chinese and all that...and if you are, how can you not have heard of the place blah blah blah...HELLOOOOO, not every single Chinese person was born/lives in Mainland China! Stupid or what?! Does she know how many Chinese people there are on this planet?! Does she know how many Chinese people live outside of China?! GODDDDD, narrow minded or what. She probably thought I was dumb and all that but I'm pretty sure she's the dumb in this case!
There was this other guy as well and he was asking me where I was from and I was thinking to myself...why are you asking me when it TELLS YOU on my profile...><" But being the nice person that I am...HAHA...I answered his question out of politeness and told him I was from the UK...He had such a big reaction and thought I was lying! He was like "mo ack san ack guai!" Ngoh sin mo lei gom dack han ack lei! IDIOT. Want me to get my passport out fooooooool?! MO LIU. Seriously though, why are people so narrow minded for?


I've also noticed how people abroad only talk to you because you're a BBC...it's like helllooo there's more to someone than their nationality!
I'm not sure what it is but maybe they find it fascinating or whatever...
I guess we'd be fascinated too if we made friends with a French person in England but still...there's just no need to act like we're some kind of alien...
You're Chinese...I'm Chinese...there's not really much of a difference is there really?
Well apart from the fact that we were born/brought up in different countries...and own different accents...At the end of the day, we're of the same race and we're human beings just like everyone else!!

It isn't often that we bump into BBCs that can speak PERFECTTT Chinese...it really isn't. I'm sure there'll be times when BBCs have problems with trying to find the Chinese word for something and so we might say the odd thing in English...and NOOOO it isn't showing off! People get it sooooo wrong! It's just that our Chinese isn't fluent enough to say EVERYTHING in Chinese! Trust me...if we could, we would.
Also, sometimes it's just a matter of habits...For example, I might say OHHH MYYYY GODDDD whereas a Chinese kid who was brought up in a different country might say 我的天啊...Seriously, that isn't showing off...It's just that we've got used to saying such phrases!
Just because we're speaking in English doesn't mean that we are showing off.
It's just...HABITS.



According to a friend of mine, Chinese people from places such as Hong Kong look down on BBCs...WHY THOUGH? WHYYYYY? I seriously don't get it. Do you?
We're all equal.
Apparently, they look down on us because our Chinese ain't good and all that...><" What the...?! WHO CARES? I don't.


My mate was telling me how her cousins have friends who go to international schools in Hong Kong and are educated in English and they think that it's necessary to show off their English. LOL what the...?! That's just MO LIU. So whenever my friend goes back to Hong Kong, her cousins are always telling her to speak in English when her cousin's mates are there. HAHA. That kind of happened to me a few times too. My cousin was telling me how her mate said his English was amazing so she told me to speak to him deadddd fast in English. HAHA. ><" It's not like my English is much better than his. People tend to think that because you were brought up in the UK you'd know every single word in the Oxford dictionary but I'm sorry to disappoint but we really don't. It's just like you can't expect every single Chinese person in this world to speak perfect Chinese, right? :)

In countries such as Taiwan, they teach their kids to pronouce words in Chinese using that "ing ang on an" thing. We don't over here, hence why sometimes our pronounciations aren't always correct. Oh well, as long as the person you're speaking to understands what you're saying that's all that matters. Hehe!


I've also noticed how everyone loves taking the mick out of my Chinese! Personally it doesn't bother me. :) But it's one of the main reasons why I don't tend to speak in full Chinese...unless I really have to. So when I'm trying to get a point across to someone, you'll never hear me speaking in Chinese because we would actually be here for a year!! Time is precious! We need to save it! ;P


I'm not sure whether any other BBCs have this problem but when you're in England, people think that you're too Chinkified...when you're in Asia, people think that you're too Westernised...You can't please everyone. ><" Sometimes I think to myself...does it really matter that much? *Sighs* *Shakes head* Anyway, enough on this topic. :P I just wanted to get my point across initttt. Everyone has different accents. It doesn't matter if it's Chinese, French, English, Italian, Asian or what not...At the end of the day, we're all human beings and there's no need to be offensive or anything towards someone's nationality. :) Being a BBC doesn't make you better than anyone else. Being an ABC doesn't make you better than anyone else. Being a HKBC doesn't make you better than anyone else. REMEMBER THAT.

There's something that I want to say...


I'M PROUD TO BE BRITISH. I'M PROUD TO BE CHINESE.


PROUD AND LOUD.


xxx